The Fear Of Feeling - Stealing You From You

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The biggest internal misalignment I see daily with basically everyone I come into contact with, ever,(including myself in the past) is the fear of deep feeling. It´s the fear of staying present with the experiential moment, without desperately trying to control it.

​As long as you fear feeling, as long as you run from feeling, as long as you avoid feeling, as long as you attempt to control feeling and control yourself...You will continue to be entirely cut off from life-force, from yourself, and suffer deeply in all aspects of personal abundance and true power.
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Keeping your two hands firmly wrapped around your own throat is the societal norm. You are conditioned to strangle yourself, allowing as little life and magnificence in to your being as possible.

You will then be sold on buying and hustling for the 'cure', which society then attempts to sell back to you...but it's never actually the cure. It's just a little shot of the Kool Aid...to keep you hanging on for dear life, in the delusion that you are "improving". Hating yourself, comparing yourself, and fearing yourself. Never even knowing yourself...Only the identities you create and jump between; A desperate attempt at finally unearthing yourself. Except you are not an identity...you are a consistent unravelling of experience, if you would just slow down enough to listen.

The REAL cure is to spot your own unconscious retardedness operating on a deep level of self trickery, and proceed to simply remove your hands from your own throat.

Yeah...just fucking stop choking yourself. Wake up. The treadmill you´re running on isnt even yours. But they have made you believe its the most awesome part of you...so you keep fucking running...for them.

Im running out of weak metaphors now.

The REAL cure is ALWAYS the simple one. But in order to even see it, you must stop shovelling the shit. You must stop choosing numbness over sensitiveness.

You wanna wake up call? Like, a REAL wake up call...that you most definitely will not get anywhere else?

​Yeah I do that...

​But prepare to have every part of the non-magnificence you carry around and commit to confronted heavily. It needs to be scared off...

I refuse to play that shit.

​Chris

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