Awakening and enlightenment is more times than not, romanticized and depicted in an overtly fluffy manner. Which could not be further from the truth.
In reality, waking up, opening up, and becoming more conscious is in no way glamorous. It is the single most terrifying, painful, and overwhelming life process i have ever experiened. It is riddled with emotional insanity, upheaval, physical fragility, chaotic confusion, and enough tears and snot to completely flood the entire north America. And as soon as you think you're done...BOOM. The next level hits you.
Awakening from my own delusions and bullshit, was the most debilitatingly painful experience I have ever had to go through in this life. It was shameful, embarrassing, mortifying, and exposed more self hatred than I ever thought possible. It was such a debilitating journey, that in some instances my body stopped functioning. I presumed death.(and in no way am I exaggerating this statement.) Imagine if everything you thought to be real, to be You, was exposed as a giant lie. A fabrication. A disease.
Awakening spits You out...naked, fragile, empty, lost and shaken to every tendon in your body. A true awakening forces you to rebirth internally. It forces you to learn how to do life all over again just to be able to survive here. but this time, from your actual nature! In alignment.
The process never ends. Over the previous 5 years of consistent relentlessness, I've come to a level of consciousness and internal evolution, where I can do things down here that I never thought possible...But regardless of where I feel I am...every day, the process of deepening my connection continues. Hooks that I never felt, suddenly rear their ugly head and knock me on my ass, and teach me how to love myself even more.
Don't get me wrong, spiritual growth is the most beautiful journey. But it is nothing to do with mantras, affirmations, kale, or downward facing dog.
If you really commit, if you really wanna be here...life will hold up the biggest mirror you have ever witnessed, and you will have to see the truth of your mess. With courage& patience, you will see underneath that mess, is all of you. Good luck
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