I'm sitting Infront of my computer right now in a beautiful Spanish Park beside my apartment, With ZERO idea what I am going to write...il just start. Here it goes... (After writing this, I can truly this this is not only meant for you, but just as much for me. Do with it what you will).
It's as easy as you allow it to be.
It's easy to talk to a pretty girl. It's even easy to talk to lots of pretty girls. Plus it's fun. But it is certainly not very important.
Not knowing what to say or do is normal. Allow this. Accept you will never really know anything, because your deeper instinctual self already knows of everything, in relation to you. Embrace your natural stupidity for the things that are already handled for us. Such as mating. Be stupid. It all becomes a whole lot easier.
Life becomes relaxed. You become humbled. You become curious, because how else would a dumb person be? He wants to know things and learn more via experience. Not via pages of information which has been experienced by another. I know, this is a page of information. Oh the hypocrisy.
Be stupid. It's the most intelligent thing you can do.
Drop the expectation. You will never fulfill it. You will spend your life chasing it. Allowing it to govern your body. Drop all expectation, and move through your life with curiosity.
Trust. Self trust. Have it. You have gotten this far already. Give your body and spirit more credit than you currently do. It has it handled, EVEN after all the idiotically stupid decisions and mistakes you have made. It has your back...but only if you trust it enough to allow it in.
If you don't trust in the overwhelming capability of yourself, doing what it is programmed to do, you will lose balance. You will lose happiness. You will lose self. I know. From first hand experience.
It took me to experience it to know it. Because I would of never listened otherwise. I am a stubborn cunt.
It's hard work being stubborn. It takes a lot of force. Avoidant force.
You will never win.
It's easy. Everything. Really, it is. You choose to make it hard. Not by fault, but by conditioning and habit. By the lies fed.
Don't be sucked in by 'The hustle' mentality of snapchatters and facefuckers which is the current fad. There is a reason they are chasing. Because they are desperately avoiding.
Slow down. Can you be still? If not, you desperately need to start being that. It is fine to passionately pursue your goals and desires....but you must be able to balance it, with stillness. Bit by bit.
Your reaction to the stillness, It is telling you something. But you must slow down to hear it. Or else....well...yeah, let's not delve into that right now.
Love and balance within yourself, is the most rewarding, powerful, and most attractive way you can be in your life. It comes from self trust, which most of us don't have.
Frantically 'hustling' or searching comes from avoidance. Needing.
But, what about now? What about right now? You don't need anything, other than a breath. And after that, yeah, your going to need another one eventually.
But in the most annoyingly spiritual hippy-dippy way, that is all you need right now. Then maybe a ham sandwich, or some heroin. I mean, where does it all become disrespectful?
You may be after reading this collection of thoughts, all the way to the end, and only have one thing to express: "Shut the fuck up Chris, you're such an idiot".
And you know what? You're right. I am an idiot. A beautiful idiot. Who needs gentle and forceful life reminders to continue being an idiot. And therein lies my secret...to everything.
Bringing realness, clarity and deep truth to our mishandled human condition. Here to assist you in a REAL way, without the fluff. Pointing you to your magnificence. Relentlessly committed to being here, embodied.