- The following excerpt was taken from a recent interview with Chris. I hope you all enjoy it, and find as much value in it as I have.
Q: Chris, how do you personally make the right decisions in your life? What if someone doesn’t agree with how you live your life? I would love to hear you thoughts on making aligned decisions in your life, and some of the difficulties that a person may expect to experience on their path of self-actualization.
“As the question is aimed at me personally, I will answer it as personally as possible.
Firstly, lets nip the conditioning in the bud here, and clarify that I’m not here to make anybody happy. I’m here to be true to my own being, nothing else.
This may initially sound selfish, but what you must realize is that through this first commitment, service and generosity to the community / collective is a natural result. If you are not living true to yourself, you have nothing to offer anybody.
In terms of making the right decisions - I don’t decide anything. I simply allow whatever has already been decided, to move through me.
My job is to live from a place of deep listening, and to honor that which arises.
I never MAKE a decision. Instead I wait and listen for the decision to make me.
My life has been filled with a beautiful abundance ever since I decided to get out of the way, and kicked the addiction of having everyone approve of me - Also with this abundance has come challenge, of course.
Everybody wants abundance, until they start to receive it, and realize how confronting it is. To receive abundance takes a reorganization of ones entire life...at least in my own personal experience.
To be untrue to self, hurts. If you continue to live a life of misalignment, you’ll become sick.
*YOU HAVE BEEN COMPROMISED*
We have been trained from very early on to do things that we in no way want to be doing.
We are told what is the right way, and what is the wrong way - by others.
We have been trained to be highly tolerant of internal disrespect, treating self like shit - Which means you get very good at treating others like shit.
We continue to perpetrate abuse upon ourselves, until life becomes a fucking nightmare of unnecessary commitments, responsibilities and external expectations to be met. None of which we want. But you signed up for it, because you were told that’s what a “good person” does. And we all want to be good people, right?
You spend your life in this posture of unhappiness.
Then you die.
What a fucking shame.
That’s a life?
*REMAIN WILD INSIDE*
The more I got clear in my own life, the more I realized that I’m just the messenger for whatever power needs to come through me. All of my other concerns are just conditioned irrationality - Stemming from distractions & programming - which has set out to keep me from being able to sit still in bliss. In ease. In peace. Even in sweet suffering.
When someone or something takes your peace from you, it has just taken your life from you. And if you weren’t so well behaved, obedient, afraid, and in line, you’d show your fucking teeth and do something about it.
Remain wild inside.
Because you have been tamed, deeply.
If you ask me why I do something, I honestly have no idea other than because I feel it through my entire being, and it arouses my connection to god, and where god exists within me. its both a physical and spiritual/energetic relationship.
My decisions in life are based upon what sparks, initiates, expands and turns-on my internal godliness.
I could give you some clever answers around why I do what I do, answers which would sound poetic and impressive, but really it’s just nonsense.
It is what it is.
I don’t fully know why I do what I do...other than the fact that my being literally gives me no other choice. It’s soldered to my spirit.
I’m not looking to figure it out. I feel it moving through me - To feel it arriving internally, is enough to honor it externally.
As my own being, I don’t need a fucking permission slip to do what I want to do in this life. I feel we have become insidiously infantile in this regard - Constantly seeking external permission, approval and validation. Within our current times, the tentacles of this disability has wrenched itself even deeper into our human experience.
It took me many years to remove this sickness from myself, and I see pretty much every client, patient, and student of mine arrive with this illness fully intact.
This is one of the biggest issues I see in modern day men. He feels the need to ask for permission to do anything. Usually it’s because he hasn’t done his mother work, and he still functions like a child - moving around as a shame filled, apologetic child. It’s very unfortunate.
It’s similar for women, after many years of oppression, control, and a lack of freedom, she struggles to allow herself be her full, heart & s*x embodied, luscious self.
You must start allowing your own being write your permission slips, because you are a grown-ass powerhouse of divinity, and spirit is your only authority. No mother, father, friend or partner is your god. No system or society is your guard. You are entirely sovereign...if you want to be.
As long as one means no harm, and it is coming from a place of love, respect and compassion...you do you boo!
My life’s work to this point has been about learning on a moment to moment basis, how to get out of the way of my own spirit. How to consistently forget anything which takes up unnecessary space in my consciousness.
My spirit will go left for as long as it wants...before it decides it must go right. I don’t get to decide when, I simply listen and follow.
My spirit is spontaneous and free. And it has been one of the biggest challenges for others in my life to be able to understand, accept and support. As it triggers their own conditioned standards and ideals, which in many instances are built from trauma.
In terms of loving;
My spirit loves love. I mean it REALLY loves love...and does so unconditionally and fiercely...without adhering to any specific rules, or expectations.
For a long time the “Chris” in me felt like this was not allowed. So he set out to keep spirit under control. To fit the molds and live up to the expectations that an insane society wanted to place upon him. He did this, until spirit got so loud, that Chris became very sick, very fast.
Through my own work, I have realized that this is not my life. It’s not Chris’s life. It’s spirits life. And my role is to support spirit, without judging or labeling the choices and decisions that come from being deeply connected to that divinity which feeds my being. Chris will never actually understand the deepest aspects of most of this. Im ok with that.
Life, in my experience, is about working with oneself to fully merge with source, physically. To the point where you realize that there is no separation between you and god. To the point of a felt-sense knowing that YOU ARE GOD.”
Bringing realness, clarity and deep truth to our mishandled human condition. Here to assist you in a REAL way, without the fluff. Pointing you to your magnificence. Relentlessly committed to being here, embodied.